My name is Jason. I spent the first 30 years of my life as a well trained sheep…
It all started when I somehow got the impression that other people and forces were in control of my life and that my responsibility was to do what they asked.
This led to getting straight A’s in school…it led to signing up for sports teams at the urging of others instead of my own…it led to doing anything and everything to receive validation and acceptance by every “authority” and source of outside measure I encountered.
In the end, it led to a complete and total disconnection from my own Will. Due to my religious upbringing at the time, I was trained to unconsciously repeat the prayer where I offered that Will to someone else, to someone who clearly would know better what to do with it than I did.
For thirty years, I was little more than DEAD while my body still lived. Baaaaaa.
And then, one day, I came back to life…
